Monday, January 18, 2010

NOTE: Please don't hate me

You know what? I don’t like not getting my way. I’m sure you don’t either, but you’re too ashamed to say it. I probably would be afraid to say it out loud, to be perfectly honest, but this blog lets me write whatever I want on it. So yeah, I like it when things go my way, hate on that all you want.

But just like the classic Stones song says: You can’t always get what you want.

Ain’t that da truth!

This evening I didn’t get what I wanted. And it made me mad. Livid would be an appropriate word for this instance. And this mood didn’t go away. In fact, this mood still lingers a little bit, even though it happened HOURS ago.

Which is why I am here, writing to you lovely people. Because I need to vent. And work it out in my head that I will not get this. Even though I deserve it and it isn’t fair and it hurts, I don’t get it and I’ll be okay without it. It still sucks, okay?

I don’t even know if I’m going to post this blog. I don’t want everyone to think that I’m a spoiled brat and I’m mad that Daddy won’t give me money to go to Hawaii for spring break. No, I’m upset about something that costs nothing but something that I passionately love. Something that is so a part of me that I could not see me without it. Something about me that has been looked over and pushed aside for most of my life.

So I have a right to be angry, correct? I think so.

I’ll be okay, really. I just need to be a little annoyed for now. I’m human. I’m a very passionate person.

So shoot me.

I hope you don’t hate me after reading this.

x0x0 Deux